The day I realised just how important this all is to me!
When I say realised, I did know really, but I have only recently fully come to appreciate what a huge part of my life this all is.
By this I mean, exercise in general and dancing specifically!
Ok…I’ll start at the start… and attempt not to over dramatise. Although I can’t promise that last one, I do tend towards the dramatic!
Last week, during a perfectly ordinary dance practice, I was dancing one of my favourite dances when there was a sudden and unexpected feeling that someone had kicked me really hard underneath my foot. My initial reaction was “who kicked me? what is going on?” and thinking this was what had happened, I attempted to carry on dancing…
This soon proved to be a mistake and I hopped off to the side of the room..literally…I couldn’t put my foot down at all by this point…
Then people got me a chair, and i poke my foot, decided it was better put my shoe on, tried to stand and nearly fell over…
It was not better…
It is still not better…
It is some sort of severe, sudden onset Plantar Fasciitis with, according to the hospital, some tears in the fibers of the plantar fascia.
There is a lot to say about what plantar fschiitis actually is…
Luckily someone who is not me has already written it down. So if you want to know more, go ahead ad click on the picture it will tell you all about it.
I am going to tell you what has happened to me afterwards…
I spent the first 4 days on crutches, I couldn’t even stand on two feet without them, I then moved down to 1 crutch and today and yesterday I have been able to walk slowly without crutches.
I have had to rest.
yes, you heard it here first (unless you are my friend on FB or in real life in which case you *may* have heard me complaining…a little…) I had to rest, no walking, no running, no gym, and no dancing.
And I have hated every minute of it!! I appreciate that it is necessary but I hate it.
I have been doing some slow walks now I am recovering, but I really can’t do any more.
I can’t even think about dancing, and it is making me into a crazy emotional wreck! I hadn’t anticipated until right now, how much a part of me this whole thing has become. To not be able to dance feels like not being able to breathe!
I know I am being dramatic.
I know it has only been a week.
I know it will get better and I only have to be patient.
But it has effected me in a much less rational way than I expected. I am alternating between stubborn positivity and crying.
On the positive side, it is an opportunity to play my recorder more, it doesn’t mean I can’t be part of Mythago, I just have to be a different part for a while.
On the negative side, I am irrational and crazy and assume I am being a nuisance to everyone! It has seriously turned me into a crazy person!
It is the same with the gym and exercise in general, I really really hate not being able to do things. This is not so bad though as I will be able to go back an train upper body soon (hopefully tomorrow).
So there it is, I know it is not the worst thing that could happen, and I have probably not put it across that well, but it has made me realise just how much I have changed my life since I started this!
It has also made me learn some things:
- Rest is a real thing
- Don’t neglect stretches
- Calves really shouldn’t be *that* tight
- Don’t neglect stretches (yes I know I mentioned this…but it is important)
- Don’t ignore niggley little pains
I am on the mend, and I just have to be patient, so I will keep you posted!