Remember when I said never again…

I did… I said never again.

I said I hated it and I wouldn’t ever do another one.

I wrote about it a lot… here and here

Well… I may have changed my mind.

Its ok…I can do that, I am allowed 🙂 I make my own rules you know 😛

In case you haven’t already guessed, I am talking about running. Specifically running races, and even more specifically running a half marathon.

Yes…that’s right, after several strong hints, you have guessed it! I have signed up to run another half marathon. Brighton half marathon on 25th Feb 2018 to be precise.

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So, there it is…

I suppose that I have a little bit of explaining to do…

I have been thinking about this for a while, I have actually been putting some serious thought into whether this is a good idea or whether I should just let the whole thing go. This is the first difference between this time and the last time. Last time it was a spur of the moment decision made after a little persuasion from  my friend Rachel who wanted someone to run with her and convince her to train. Don’t get me wrong, I decided to do it of my own free will, but I didn’t have the idea for myself and I never really wanted to do it for the right reasons.

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Me…and Rachel…

I didn’t do the last one because I wanted to run a half marathon, I did it to help out a friend. Which is all well and good, but it didn’t really set my head off in the right place. I was negative about the whole thing from the outset.

This time it is different. I have thought, a lot…and bored people talking at them about it. I have decided that I want to do another one.

Not “I feel I should”

Not “It would be a good thing to do for charity”

I want to run (or walk/run) a half marathon. I want to do it for the following reasons:

  • I want to run a half marathon to prove to myself that I can.
    I know this seems odd as I have already done one, but the experience of the last one was so bad that I have discounted it in my head)
  • I want to see what I can do with the right training and the right food and basically the right versions of everything I got wrong in the last one.
  • I want to do it to prove to myself I can stick at things and improve, to prove I am not a failure.
    Yes…I do feel like one after the failed walk and the disastrous last half…I know I am not one in general, but sometimes we have to do things to banish the feeling.
  • I want to run a half marathon for me.

So that is it, me running a half marathon because I want to… noone forcing me, noone pressuring me to do it, just me against myself.

I *could* just go out and train for a half marathon and run the distance with no race I suppose…but I want an official tick. I want a deadline and a designated place and time to do it. I like to have something tangible to train for.

Also I like shiny medals…

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past Brighton half medals! 

Not that you are really allowed to go around wearing your medals…not for more than one day any way…

I don’t see why not though…I might do this time…I fully intend to be proud of myself at the end and not just grumpy and broken!

In fact I am going to try not to be grumpy at all during this process…

Ok…no that is a complete lie..I will be grumpy sometimes but I am determined not to be sad and angry throughout the race!

I will, of course, keep you informed about how my training is going! The very first thing I need to do is figure out a training plan…and how to run… and how to eat while running and drink… ok…I’ll take those one at a time…

but for now…

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Run!!

7 Comments

      1. I ran before good running shoes were available and my knees have never been quite the same–although I admit they’re better than my attitude. My brother, though, ran for years with good shoes and has left himself with serious knee problems. I’m just not convinced the human body’s meant to take that kind of pounding year after year after year.

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      2. That is worrying!
        Touch wood I have never had knee problems running… I am going to do my best not to have them in the future either! I need to learn a whole new regimen for stretching and looking after my legs in general. I have never been very good at it which is why my running always stalls i think!

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  1. Congrats! I’m training for my first half marathon. I’ve only been running a couple of years, and last year at this time, I’d never run more than 3.5 miles… Friday I did my first 9 miles! Slow and steady wins the race for me… I’m okay taking my time to get where I need to be so that I can enjoy the process!

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    1. 9miles is awesome!! If you can do 9 you will do your half 🙂
      You are right about enjoying the process…the last time I did a half I didn’t enjoy any of it and it went very badly. I am determined this time will be different!!
      There is no point in doing it and not enjoying it!!

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