Time to stand
Time to fight
Time to turn and face the light
My inner warrior goddess has spoken
I wrote this a while ago, at the time it was a kick in the face to my anxiety and I felt like I needed to declare that I wasn’t going to let it get to me any more! After all who can argue with a warrior goddess…even an inner one!
I feel like this again today! It is time to fight once more, this time I am fighting for my life! No, not in a critical illness sort of way and I am of course not comparing my situation to those who are fighting a life threatening condition.
I mean it is time to fight back against my self sabotaging nature. To fight to be able to live the life I want to live without being worried about people with cameras, without being worried that I am not fast enough or fit enough. Without constantly believing I am holding people up and being humored by people. It doesn’t matter at this point whether people are really thinking those things, I am thinking those things and the only way to stop myself is to step up and do something about the weight I have regained and the fitness I have lost.
So this is the 365 project reboot number 157 (probably not literally). I know I have started again several times. I know I have promised things I have not delivered on. This time I mean business. This time feels like the first time. I am excited to get started. Anyway, it doesn’t matter how many times you start, the important thing is not to stop! (or something)
Yes, that’s what I was trying to say, only in handy (coherent) picture form! I am not normally a fan of these “motivational” thingies but these seemed appropriate.
So, here it is the official reboot of Project “Fit enough to dance in a mask”.
Along side the official boot of project “Fit enough to live without a mask”
(I think I am going to call the two together Project Warrior Goddess)
The aims of Project Warrior Goddess:
- Regain enough fitness so that I can dance as much and as often as necessary without feeling like I am the fat one people put up with.
- Gain enough confidence in my legs and my fitness that I could do additional dancing without having to hide myself behind a mask to do it.
- Alter my shape such that I am not embarrassed by myself.
How am I going to achieve these aims (general):
- Move more. Lots more. Move every day, and move fast as often as possible. By which I mean achieve a good balance between weights and cardio
- Return to functional and plyometric training.
- Track the food that I am eating to regain control over my consumption and ensure that I am not just eating all the food.
So, that is the generalities out of the way, now for how this translates to specifics:
1 Million steps!
I have signed up to walk 1 million steps between 1st July and 30th September. It is an organised challenge run in aid of Diabetes UK which is a charity close to my heart. I have written about it before here: Stop blaming the diabetics. I am doing this as part of a team along with my husband, so at least I’ll have a person to share motivation with 😀
It is going to be quite a challenge for a person who is forced to sit down for 8 hours 5 days a week, but it is not going to be impossible. To find out all about the challenge go here 1 Million steps.
If you happen to want to fling some money at the good cause that is Diabetes UK in my name then you can do it here:
I have done it before, so I am going to do it again. I am going to do the Shaun T written, super crazy workout program that is Insanity. It is cardio, it is plyometric, it is pretty damn awesome, and pretty damn hard.
I actually have no idea how I am going to fit it in along side all of the things I already do, but I am not accepting excuses any more.
so in the words of Shaun T: