Aaaaarrrrgh!!

In one month (exactly… it is on the 22nd November) I have my very first strongwoman competition.

It would be fair to say that I am suddenly exceedingly anxious about the whole thing!

Ok, actually that would be something of an understatement. When I actually think too hard about competing in this competition (and the one shortly after) I get fairly panicky and start overthinking… really overthinking!

Will I be able to do anything?
Will I look stupid?
Will I fall over?
Will I drop weights on my head?
Will I cry?
What if I can’t do it?
What if I can do it and am so surprised I forget to do it?
What if I fall down?
What if people laugh at me?
What if I laugh at me?
What if I get too scared and hide?
People will be there…people!!!
What if I die?
Did I mention the people?

However all I can do is keep on training and training, eating protein and attempting to sleep properly!

Sounds pretty easy put like that doesn’t it…

The continuation of training is ok, I seem to be managing that, eating protein is ok too… Its the other one.

Sleep is becoming increasingly difficult, for reasons I have not really determined…

Still, to badly paraphrase a CBT book I once skimmed through:

You can live on less sleep than you think so stop worrying about it and get on with your life.

I am pretty sure it didn’t put it quite like that but that was the gist… It is a mantra I have taken to living by, especially in those times (like now) where I don’t sleep well for various reasons.

Enough of that, it seems to be beyond my control. I am mostly concentrating on things that are in my control, like training!

I have started to do a thing which is apparently a valuable training tool and not just a terrifying thing to put on instagram; I have started to video me doing things in the gym. I have done it twice so far, once on my own with the aid of a gorilla pod, it wasn’t as well framed as I would like, but it worked…

So, without further ado, I am going to show you some things…

I did 130kg yoke walk, it was hard put it puts me where I need to be for the competition! I also managed 102.5kg for reps which is even better than last week!! 😀

Onwards and upwards 😀